Hate

I hate what I look like, I hate how I feel, I am so disgusted by myself that its destroying me inside...

I went to fashion bug today to try and find a nice outfit to wear to Kens race banquet and everything I tried on made me get more and more depressed, I was in tears, my poor baby kept telling me I was beautiful and that she loved me, I smiled and gave her a hug and we left...

I look in the mirror and my heart breaks at what I see a huge fat monster that disgusts me :(