I am back

I am back, and I am so so lost its not even funny...

I am at the same weight, and trying to get motivated is impossible, especially when you hate who you are, there is no motivation in that...

So I have asked my daughter to walk with me everyday just so I can get away for a bit, and have time with her...I have been doing my exercises everyday, but sometimes my pain is to much, this would all be so much easier if I were healthy...

I want to loose 30 pounds by April...I want to look damn good for Ken on his birthday, I want to be able to wear something skimpy and knock his socks off, to be ok with who I am, not worry about it, so I am kicking it into over drive...

I will continue to update :o)